yea thank you to the two people that gave me actual suggestions.

i duct taped him to my bed one time. he really seemed to enjoy that. but of course it was a little awkward for me since i suck at dirty talk. i just make myself laugh every time. and then he starts laughing at me. and then the whole thing about him being a naughty boy and needing to be punished seems a lot less threatening. but i think i just need more practice at it.
i guess i could talk dirty to myself in the mirror? yea, that's probably really weird.

i made like 12 brussel sprouts and ate them with dinner one night but still it was hard to fart on him, like to seriously do it. maybe it was leaning over him like that it made it more difficult. when i sit up straight on his face i find it a lot easier to fart. i'm still kinda shy about it too, i think. but i burp in front of him and sometimes in his and he goes nuts. that was a lot easier to get into lol. he really likes to lay his head on my stomach and listen to all the sounds it makes. i know that's a big thing he likes is the sound of farts and burps.

i keep wondering if my boyfriend would have an account on something like this and if he would come across all this stuff i'm typing wtf he would say haha.

i know though that his ultimate fantasy and the porn and clips he really likes are the ones where the woman is dominating the man. like all in vinyl and kick ass boots, him being chained up. i'm really wondering how i could get myself to embody that kind of woman. i mean, it's not me, at least not usually. i know i do have a side to me that can be very bossy and intimidating, but in a somehow sexy way. it's just hard to figure out how to bring it out.

anyway i'm going to bed. thanks for reading all that mess.