This is pretty serious. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_u1Vx6y5OEQ
I don't understand why you can't just stop. Do you have a mental disorder that causes you to spontaneously link random garbage? Enough already, we get it, you sleep in your basement with a shotgun under your pillow and a pistol in every cabinet or empty space because you believe the world is out to get you and everyone is evil. Just stay in your basement and leave the rest of the world alone until you decide you can behave in society.